I was walking by the river at the end of the day.

The Sun was setting.

The sky was so beautiful.

There are no words to describe what it looked like or how I felt.

There was no admission fee to pay for this extraordinary sight.

It was for all who happened to be passing by at that moment in time.

The golden light was shimmering on the river.

That was the moment I let go of all things.

I immersed myself in God’s grace and I filled my soul with his amazing grace.

Mi Sun

 

 

This is all I am today, I hope more than yesterday, maybe less than tomorrow. This is all I am. I cannot waste this day, wishing, I was more than I am or have more than I have. This is all I am today. I will work with what I have today and build on it, and be grateful for all my blessings. I am trying not to waste this day of my life before it is past. I have enough, I am enough. I have all I need today in this precious moment!

Mi Sun
10/09

Open your hands, and let it go, stop clenching your hands so tight.

Open your heart and release your fear.

I see in your face your fear and sorrow, clinching tighter and closing

your heart will only bring you more sorrows and heart aches.

Open your eyes and look around you, see all that beauty that surrounds you.

Open your heart and feel the love that I have given you.

I know it is not easy sometimes, But I am with you always if let me.

I will walk with you in your journey; I will surround you with my love, until all this has pass.

Mi Sun

Lord, I know better yet, my heart is heavy and I feel so weary.

Lift this heavy feeling and this sorrow from me.

I know in the end, this is not all that important, and this will pass, this shall pass.

But for now, I just want to rest my weary soul and tell my story to the one who loves me.

Sometimes it is so hard to live in this world, in this body, trying to navigate trough this life.

This is one of those days, Lord. Just hold me and let me rest my weary soul and recharge myself in

your loving arms, just for little while, until I can face all this again, just for little while.

Mi Sun

As I wake each morning, this is my prayer for the day.

May I live this day Lord, fully conscience of my entire task in
hand, and all who comes my way.

May I not waste one moment of this day, with unkind thoughts or
words that would not be helpful to anyone.

May I do all the task that lies in front of me, with a joyful heart and peace and love!

May I complete each task, leaving nothing left undone, or regrets
for me to carry in to next day, or next life.

At the end of this day, as I lay my head on my pillow, that I may know I have completed
my list of tasks, for this day.

Mi Sun

My life is and has been an amazing grace.  I did not always feel that way. It has taken a long time for me to get here, and to feel the way I do. I had to learn and grow inside and out, and I needed the time and distance from my beginning, to give my self a chance to reflect upon my journey. As we all do. Yet when I was going through the difficult times it was hard to remember, I was not alone and I was loved. When you are suffering, it is hard to see, this too shall pass, there will be an end, and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel.  I forget how strong I really am, and how resilient I have been.

Now I see that life itself is an amazing grace. I can’t imagine any of us could get through one day of our life without the grace of The Eternal God. The song “Amazing Grace” speaks of a lost soul finding redemption in his life. This has been sung in many languages. Many of us have identified with the lyrics of the song, as I have too. Now I know that God’s grace has been with me, always watching over me, watching over all of us even when we feel and think we are lost. As I see it now. I was never lost, I was never forgotten, I just thought I was.

There was a long time in my life, I wasn’t sure I would ever find my way home, and, if I did, would He ever love me, would I be worthy of that love? Perhaps, that was the question that lay deep inside of me … Was I worth it? Maybe all of us asked this question one time or other in our lifetime. Fear of rejection, and feeling maybe I wasn’t worth it.

That question never needed to be asked. This I know now. We are all his children, we are part of Him. We have broken His heart at times; we may make mayhem of our lives, causing deep sorrows in His heart. Yet His heart and arms are always open to embrace us.  That is what I have learned. The light was always on and the door was always open to my Father’s House. I just need to reach for it and ask and to remember I was part of His creation. When I lost all hope in my self, He kept the faith in me. He kept the door open, He kept the light on so I could find my way back. He received me with open arms and embraced me so tenderly!

Amazing grace, Amazing grace! How sweet thou are!

Mi Sun Donahue

May 14, 2010

You told me you loved me, so I believed you.

You told yourself you loved me, so you believed yourself.

I convinced my self you loved me too.

We played this life of destruction, without even realizing it.

As the fog lifted, I realized this wasn’t love , this is called controlling.

We played the game of life, without even knowing the stakes.

It made us sick, yet we kept on playing, in the name of love, royalty and honor.

How insane and in despair, does one have to be,to keep on playing this game?

Mi Sun

 

I am trying to stop the struggles in my mind, and in my heart. I realize the more I struggle, the more I suffer. The characters in my story change. The scenery changes, but still I struggle with the same issues, over and over. I think it is different, but it is actually the same story. I am older, and the problems are larger and more complex. There are larger consequences than when I was a child.

We carry our grievances and disappointments as if they were some kind of treasure, not willing to let go of them even when they are drowning us. Even when the end is near we still struggle to hang on to our pain and sorrows, refusing to let them go.

What if there is life after death? What if there is life after life? Coming back, doing the same thing over and over again? Expanding our karma again and again for lifetimes. Not realizing that if I want my life to be different, I have to live my life differently. I cannot do the same thing over and over expecting different results. This is the insanity. We have all been living this way for a long, long time. All of us have been perpetuating this, the same storyline for ages. It seems this is the story of the human condition.

Now I can see clearly the stories of our lives, the story of my life, our delusions, our confusion, and our insanity.

I will let go of these struggles and I will battle no more.